John, your courage is inspiring. Reading your story of how you have suffered the unimaginable pain of losing your precious daughter, battled physical, mental challenges and come out the other side with strength, hope and even glimpses of joy, gives me hope. I am very sorry Holly had to leave this life so soon and thank you for putting your grief into words. I'd love to hear the story behind the pom-poms. You are resourceful and talented and all your experiences up to this point will enrich your life in some way. I wish you great success with your novel, YouTube channel and new career as a counsellor.