Oh Bebe, this must have been heartbreaking to write. I'm sorry your mom's last few months were so distressing for you all. You are not alone with your mixed feelings of sadness, grief, guilt and relief. It's completely understandable and normal to feel all of these things.

From all you've written here it's clear you were an amazing daughter. You did the best you could for your mom and that's all anyone can ask for. 💕